September 27, 2021

Life Check

Life check.

 

Am alive-- am thriving--

Not sure why, but that's enough to send

This guy into another spiral.

 

More episodes will follow-- I have a lot I need to catch up on

Loads of completed fully planned episodes

I've been too obsessive over to let go of.

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Just ranting honestly

I have other episodes planned, I announce them

I don't have anything scripted for this episode it's just

Completely off the handle.

I am sorry I haven't been making as many episodes, I've been

More than a bit preoccupied, so keep that in mind

If you want to cancel me-- it's okay--

I have plans anyway.

 

https://www.netflix.com/title/80168079

That's the documentary on the sochi olympics that mentions testosterone therapy

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School House Mock? Too much? Not enough?

 

These bills are killing trans kids and no one seems to think about it that way. 

 

Protect the children? Whose children? Where? What? When? Why? How?

How about let's stop selling and killing kids at the border first.

Republicans seem to focus on clickbait topics and turn them into policy, which is what they're always blaming us for. Meanwhile back at the ranch, real trans people are really suffering.

 

Trust trans kids. Believe trans kids. Stop doubting, stop questioning, stop harassing trans youth.

 

We can't protect them from everything, but these bills need to go. If any of this shit sticks on the fan, it will blow into other areas. The transphobia will snowball.

 

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Talk about a friendly goodbye.

"Mean"? Does that really cut it?

Does "mean" hold up against all that ignorance?

I've about had it with Ru Paul and I think it's time the empire started to collapse on itself. Ru Paul's ego is old, fat and bloated--if you don't mind me saying so.

Fat. A word for excess adipose tissue. Something Ru Paul would have, if he didn't look like he had weekly plastic surgery appointments to suck the fat out of every crevice of his body. He would take that as a compliment, certainly!

Gottmik as the first trans contestant? Might as well have a headline that says "Go fuck yourself, trans history!"

Anyway here's all my notes

utica roast outline

 

Intro

hello, I dunno if I'm becky anymore

But I'm sure as hell still mad about it.

Utica's roast was one of the more revealing parts of the show.

Exposed underlying sentiments long encouraged in the show

Season 2 is a great example of virulent fatphobia scripted by Ru Paul himself into the show

--Raven benefits from her real-time roast of mystique during the food challenge. Her jokes about mystique in the interview clips are at least as mean as Utica's roast material. Except-- no roast in sight. Just another contestant on the show.

--they made them eat brains and all sorts of weird stuff that the other queens found disgusting, so that when mystique won first by a large margin (because it was a speed-eating competition!!!) She was double standard punished for both finishing first and finishing first while eating what the other queens treated as such a disgusting array of foods. Mystique was both setup to win, and setup to be shamed for winning.

Season 9 Sasha Velour, Valentina and Eureka have a confrontation

--Eureka is edited as the loud angry fat person bullying the thin people with eating disorders

--Eureka's own experience with eating disorders is completely edited out.

--There is a clip where Sasha begins to apologize to Eureka and her word is clipped mid-sound. Sounds edited, highly suspicious. Perhaps Sasha velour was acknowledging Eureka's truth, and the show edited it out?

--Eureka recieves the villain edit in season 9 and 10 both. When she talks about her serious injury, and the struggles involved in healing from it-- she is treated as someone grasping at straws for sympathy as some sort of advantage in the competition. This is pretty common in the show, but generally pits real vulnerability as not just weakness, but manipulative intent.

--At least three contestants come forth talking about their issues with eating disoders, and none of the fat contestants are ever interviewed about their issues with body image and food. I have a hard time believing Eureka didn't talk about eating disorders.

Fast forward through Nina West, who is labeled as a plus sized without being plus sized. She is a broad, full sized adult man who doesn't try to become an unhealthy size or weight. She is treated as fat, and has self-labeled as such. She also happens to play devil's advocate whenever possible, "diffusing the situation", "putting out fires" aka BEING A HUGE WET BLANKET.

tbh after this recent footage fuck Nina West.

Silky Nutmeg Ganache also recieved a vicious villain edit in the show. I believe she is a huge diva in real life, but I also fail to understand how this is a disadvantage on the show. In all previous seasons-- the biggest diva wins. Unless she is quite literally the biggest, largest diva.

Kim Chi was robbed. Multiple times. Her song "fat femme and asian" not only puts her in a box, but fails to make it a box anyone would want to open. For a queen with such tremendous artistic talent and emotional depth, I feel that "fat femme and asian" is more than a bit reductive. It definitely hasn't aged well, given America's epidemic of asian violence.

Now we arrive to Utica. I'm sure we missed some other plus girls on the show, but I just wanted to make this about Utica TBH. I would love to have a whole separate episode about fatphobia in all the seasons of ru paul, but I needed to give you some history in case you weren't aware or hadn't seen the later seasons.

Utica starts the episode by pandering for compliments about her lipsync. She clearly intends for people to congratulate her for sending Tina Burner home, and for them to say her lipsync was amazing. It wasn't, so they didn't.

She then writes her jokes, which apparently are so bad that Rose even said something in her cutaway interview that she thought they were insensitive at best. She goes to rehearsal, she starts delivering her material

Her first joke is good, she tells her lion king joke. It flops, Michelle critiques-- the way she would with any other queen. Utica responds by fat shaming her, ignoring and insulting her critique. She then tells the Nina West "whale" joke. Doesn't even make a Dory reference (comedy crime no.1)

Loni Love laughs, because the jokes was horribly fatphobic.

Utica laughs at the whale laughing at the whale joke

Utica drives it to the next level by asking if she's triggered, when she stops laughing--

She stops laughing because she realizes this person is not respecting anything she is saying or doing, so she stop feeding the troll.

The troll keeps whacking. Loni Love, to me, seems to retreat.

Michelle steps in, says its very mean, very harsh, not good.

Utica laughs, rolls her eyes, seems to think to herself "well then the right people will love it"

"I think this is funny, everyone else will think it's funny to"

She literally says later in the dressing room, after the rehearsal--

"If I'm having fun, they will too!"

Nope.

Utica performs every joke as-was in the rehearsal. No edits, nothing changed whatsoever. Well, except that the roast has more jokes. And They’re all worse, somehow.

She smiles and enjoys the whole thing start to finish regardless of what her response was.

Her jokes to Heidi were racist, IMO.

I believe that the secret to Utica's offensive humor was that to her, it was very very funny.

To many other people on twitter and reddit, they also loved it. They also thought it was all very very funny.

In order for those jokes to have any punch, any joke, any humor whatsoever-- you have to fill in the gaps. You have to imply. You have to make implications.

You have to have a series of stereotypes that you find less-than, that you automatically assume about people. Those seterotypes, those implications, those biases you find hilarious are all biases. Those are not proven. Those are assumed negative attributes, that you deem unseemly, that you don't associate yourself with. That you go ahead and assume about someone else, that you dont' know. It's bullshit, It's called being a fucking bigot.

If you thought any of Utica's jokes were funny, it's because of those implications. I believe that if you were the wrong kind of folk, you could definitely enjoy various racist implications insinuiated by Utica's material.

No one even mentioned it. The only people I've seen talking about it online are talking about it in other countries, outside of America. Fuck America TBH

Plenty of other queens made offensive jokes with fatphobic material. The implications of their jokes were nothing like Utica's. Gotmikk's joke about Ross coming when the pizza is delivered in a porno implies literally nothing about Ross's lifestyle or character other than a funny joke about loving pizza abstractly. Calling Kandy a roast is also kind of implying that she is delicious.

Loni Love heckles her that she is bombing and laughs. The whole panel laughs with her.

Ru flips her off twice while laughing and smiling

They get their promo shot for the season

The golden meme from Season 13

Utica is proud of her performance, but seems to understand that she wasn't going to be judged well.

She is very proud and at ease leaving the studio. It is, by all definitions, a completely normal exit interview.

She leaves on a high note, Ru Says she looks amazing, and that she was funny sometimes, but other times too mean.

She says she loves her and that she should sashay.

I think she put Symone in the bottom to make sure that Utica was sent home, but perhaps Symone was only in the bottom for her poor performance. Perhaps I'm being way too optimistic

If Olivia had bombed, Utica very well may have survived another day.

Utica's ractist undertones went completely unchecked.

Ru paul laughed his ass off at the whole thing

I guarantee you she will be back for All stars

Yet another chapter in a long history of Ru Paul's Drag Race promoting and benefiting from fatphobia, and fatphobic sentiment.

Arguable Lawrence Chaney is a winner only because of his willingness to play the part.

I shouldn't have to have personal experience as a fat person to be able to see the various contemptuous intents presenting in this episode, and past episodes. Same as racism, it is plain to see. Sexism, plain to see.

 

Again, why is it that on a show that claims to uplift and represent the queer community-- Ru is taking credit for discovering, accepting and adapting trans people for the show, all while silencing and editing out all previous trans contestants. Gottmik is just another chapter in a long history of transgender drag queens. Many previous contestants on the show have come out as transgender, and many previous contestants on the show have identified as nonbinary-- even Gigi Goode who almost won. Why wasn't the gentlemen--start your engines line changed for that season? What about gottmik makes it "racers" instead of gentlemen?? Gottmik identifies as male, he uses he/him pronouns, he just happens to be transgender.

Why. Is. This. The. Season. It. Becomes. Racers.

 

February 3, 2021

Intersectionality

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Black history month is here, so let's talk some intersectionality. 

Feminist-- Why I identify as one
Feminism is the root of most progress
Misogyny is a driving force behind discrimination of women and LGBTQAI folks
Who came up with intersectional feminism?
Kimberlé Crenshaw, a black American law professor coined the term in 1989. She's still active and working as a lawyer and civil rights advocate.

 

Why do we still have problems if this has been around since then...? Exactly, my friend. Exactly.

 

Nothing is perfect. Certainly not social movements, and definitely not this fucking podcast. I dig into some of the problems with how people use intersectionality, as well as how our government ignores it. White feminism does little to help POC thrive. 

 

Ally is a verb, folks. Do it-- don't identify as a verb. You can't identify as an ally, same way you can't identify as a fuck.

Although it is tempting...

 

January 7, 2021

Becky Lives !!!

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Trans 2020 recap

 

Becky is sick

Becky is full of it

Becky finally got his name changed

Becky had a health scare

Becky learned th’ software

Also I swear to god I met some real life TERF’s

 

Elliot Page is here!!!

JK Rowling is a professional TERF

Eddie Izzard is making her own rules

I can’t help but cheer

TERF head cannon of anxiety and fear

I can’t live there any more

not worth it

I can’t even visit

 

Christine and the Queens is becoming famous

MUNA isn’t…?

What’sherface is disappearing and unqueering herself

Literally all the popstars

*insert rant about queer pop here

All the things you said all the things you said running through my head

MOVING ON

 

Pandemic gone done shut the whole earth down

I rebooted, so has everyone else

Society is resilient, kinda like this mutating virus

Worst year ever did we really need to

Celebrate it? I mean come on folks I didn’t want to have

Any sort of new years edition

 

This episode is about plans for

2021 

Because we have to move on

Sorry I forgot about the playlists

I’ve been working a ton, I can’t listen to music when I work—

I don’t get anything done.

September 9, 2020

Non-Binary Blues

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I've beyond had it.

If I hear one more person say they want to 

"Look more Non-binary"

I'm gonna flip my lid

I've already flipped my lid ten times just this week--

There is tightness in my chest.

AIN'T NOBODY LOOK MORE OR LESS NON-BINARY THAN ANYBODY ELSE

HOW TF YOU SUPPOSED TO LOOK NB

WHY ARE YOU PUTTING SO MUCH PRESSURE ON EVERYBODY 

Also some of us don't want to conform

To your ideas of gender, so

What happens to us and them!?!?

What about looking like a man makes you

Less non-binary than looking like a woman?

Vice versa?!?!?

I've been under the impression this whole time, that we are supposed to be

Fighting gender norms--Not gatekeeping them.

 

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I have had various tough questions since starting my transition.

-Whats the difference between being non-binary and being trans?

-Is microdosing hormones a thing?

-Where are the de-transitioners, why did they stop, and what happened when they did?

Some of them have been "answered"

Most of them haven't. I had to answer most of my own questions, which is just how life goes. 

Predictably, people hate curiosity. Also, people love trends!

Microdosing everything is a trend nowadays. I go into briefly what I've been told about microdosing HRT from my endocrinologist, but mostly ya'll-- what is your plan? What's your goal? I would love to be able to control the effects of my hormones... but that's not really how they work?

I'm sure I'll lose a bunch of followers for being anti-microdosing. I've weighed this possibility, and come to terms with it. I don't think I could sleep at night advocating for something that I don't think is healthy. 

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The poems are really paying off--what a title! All aboard the struggle bus, party edition.

 

Brief life updates, lots of crying. Best ignored, perhaps.

 

Worst trans person ever! Cancel Becky.

 

I will be making episodes on male sexuality, piss play, herpes, meth in the community, and more music--all after I'm finished with school in the fall. So--maybe never.

 

Lmao that's a nice way of teasing you, I know.

 

I've lost it! Tah tah 

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Have you read this?

JK Rowling Writes About Her Reasons For Speaking Out on Sex and Gender Issues

Like, actually read it?

I'm being serious--

Did you read someone else's opinion on Twitter

Before you made your own...?

Really actually read all 12 pages

Then join me for this episode. 

She has become radicalized in the last few years, all because of twitter!

She quotes all of the biggest features of TERF ideology, and stirs fear over bathrooms.

She says things most all people consider to be transphobic. 

She is clearly being a provocateur, but why? Perhaps maybe because she has been harrassed nonstop for her limited understanding of sex and gender?

She has had to self-educate now, and is only listening to TERF's about gender politics. She is responsible for her beliefs and her decision to quote famous TERF writers and leaders. Trans people are also responsible for how they have reacted to her twitter over the years. She has become a target for abuse, and I don't want to be associated with that sort of "activism".

 

Perhaps saddest of all, is that JK Rowling refers to all of her online abuse as "trans activism". I do not advocate for such speech. 

 

SADDER THAN THAT is how many fans I have lost because I don't want to villainize her further than she has villainized herself! It is not enough for me to simply disagree with JK Rowling, I must degrade her--otherwise I'm not really a trans advocate!

 

What fucked up version of the twilight zone am I living in???

How am I living such a beautiful life surrounded by feminist trans people, but online--it's a different universe?

 

https://www.pinknews.co.uk/2020/03/12/gender-recognition-bill-scotland-public-consultation-transgender-rights-non-binary-ally/

here is the gender recognition bill in scotland that Rowling is so terrified of. I don't understand her fears, as the legislation is still strict--still imposes limitations on transition. None of her fears in her treatise are verifiable. 

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